Another Random Observation..

You ever noticed how what somebody else wants will quickly become something that you want... And possibly something you never even had in your mind???

Just a thought...

Pandora's box...

I opened it...

Now to get it closed...

Real talk...

I wish I knew what to do...

But I have no idea...

UGH!!!!

Only dumb people fall in love...

I know it's a little harsh...

But I must say...

It's so danm true...

The smarter you are... The harder it is for you to find love... Just for the plain and simple fact that when you're smart... You think too much... Dumb people don't think that much... And in turn just go with what they're feeling... A smart person will sit and analysis what they're thinking... And in turn block out what they're feeling... Just because they want to be sure that everything lines up... And because they do that... They are constantly confused... And just give up on the whole thing... They literally shut down until there is no more...

I hate being so smart!!! UGH!! It's a burden... Truly... And I personally am in the shutting down phase... I don't want to be... But I am... 

Better luck next time...

....

Right now my mind is all over the place... 

So I'm going to do my best to get this out now...

Because it's raw...

And the most honest I think I can ever be...

In all honesty... I haven't talked to Robbie in over a year... So I can't really say we were that close... But my senior year of high school we had 2 classes together... (Neither of which we were quite fond of... and would skip on occasion) He was my co-anchor on the morning announcements... And I wouldn't have had it any other way... Robbie was one of those smart talented jocks that you wanted to hate... But couldn't help but love... He was just an all around great person... And in reality he will truly be missed by me... And I am frankly distraught over the news of his passing... I really just don't know what to think.... I mean in my head right now... I feel so bad for him... His family... And all his really close friends... But at the same time... I can't believe how someone so smart could something so idiotic! It blows my mind that he died by driving drunk... Something so ridiculous to me... And I thank god that no one else was a victim of his recklessness... It's crazy to me how people can even take the risk... And he was so young... I just can't seem to get my mind to focus on one emotion... One second I'm sad that he's gone... And then the next I'm pissed that he let this happen!! UGH!!! I always knew Robbie was the life of the party... But I never thought it would come to this...

So with that said... I just want to say... It's okay to live your life to the fullest... And party... And have a grand old time... But to do so recklessly... And at risk to others... I mean is it really worth a life?

I'm so sorry Robbie that you were the chosen one... And I hope that you didn't die in vain... 

RIP Robbie... You'll always be my favorite co-anchor...

"Signing off"

RIP Robbie...

I'm not in the right mind set for this right now...

I got so much in my head right now...

And I'm not sure what exactly I want to say...

I'm way too angry/upset/sad/shocked/confused to make any sense...

So...

To be continued...

Lightbulb!

You know that old saying...

"If you can't beat them... Join them."

Well as I finally completed A Raisin in the Sun... It became pretty clear that that is the worst advice ever!!!!

Seriously though... How can you be your own person if you follow that idea? Then you would just be like them... And who really wants to be like them?!?! 

Um... No one...

Random Observation...

I just realized that I am still trying to be the Little Mermaid... Man... You would think after oh uh....  17yrs that would fade... Well I guess not... l0l... 

I STILL WANNA BE ARIEL!!!!

l0l

MY PRESIDENT IS BLACK!!!!

True change we can believe in!!!!

0h Meng... Really though...?

Man... 

I must say I really can't stand to kick someone when they're down...

And to do so unintentionally...

Because of someone else's malinntent...

I feel so horrible...

Mostly because I deal with this person on almost a daily business...

Why?

My thing is... 

I can't understand how someone can just let you do something so wrong on like a billion different levels?!?! How much of an bitchass person do you have to be to let someone else do your bidding?!? Ugh!!

Damn and I walked right into this!!!

So I guess the lesson is...

Do not be cool with anyone who point blank says they don't care about people...

It's just not smart...

So now...

I'm going to go with my brain instead of these atrocious feelings... 

And I'm peacing out! 

l0l

I'm walking right the hell out!!

Bad News...

OK... 

So... I was recently blessed with some information... That unfortunately was not good...

Really... It's quite disappointing... Especially because it's just another thing added to a list of negatives... 

I can't say it's surprising... Because really it's just not...

I can't understand why people do things that are so... Just so trifling... I mean really... What is there to gain? And really... Can you ever say you got away with it?

I realize that sometimes people do things they don't mean to do... But then sometimes... They are aware of everything they're doing... So why?

Why just not be straight with someone? 

What is it? Are they trying to spare someone's feelings? Or are they just trying to save face? 

To be truthfully honest... I wish this shit had come out a long time ago... But it's okay... It's out... And that's all that matters...

He's Just Not That Into YOU... I mean ME... l0l

So... About 3 yrs ago... I stole a book from a friend of mine out of shear boredom... The book just so happened to be "He's Just Not That Into You" by Greg Brehendt and some lady I think named Lisa...

Well anywho... I must say that book was the funniest... And most educational book I ever read... I mean really... Eventhough most of it is common sense... For all this information to come straight from a dude so blatantly... I was like wow... It's safe to say... That I can no longer bullshit myself... When all the answers I sought were in this book... I mean really after I read that book... I knew I would never allow myself to fall for the same bullshit....

Fast forward 3 yrs... And I had completely forgotten everything I learned...

So with the pending movie release based on this book... All the knowledge that I assertained 3 yrs ago has finally come back to me...

And I can say for certain today...

He's just not that into me... l0l

What are you gonna do?!?! l0l

Why do we settle?

Okay so I understand that it's in our nature as human beings to have someone... For the simple fact that we don't do well alone... (Example: Britney Spears) 

But really... Must we settle for crappy ass people...?

I mean... Is being alone so bad that we will knowingly get with someone or hang around someone who is the epitomy of a shithead... And allow them to make us the fool?!?!?

Seriously though... We will straight up ignore signs that someone is not genuine and is knowingly messing with our emotions... And believe the act that they are innocent... 

I mean I can't imagine that if someone is causing you pain... Or making you feel uncomfortable... That they have no clue that they are doing so... I just refuse to plain and simple...

Why is it so hard for us to say what we feel and risk losing the shithead who's causing you grief?Why is it so easy for us to settle for mistreatment by someone who claims to care about you? 

I just don't get it....