I am tired...
I am hurt...
And I am basically broken...
I don't think I've ever taken this many hits at one time...
I think everything has finally caught up to me...
I was so steady playing roles and just plain old being who they wanted me to be that I lost my mind...
And now the consequences of my actions and my pure recklessness are kicking my ass now...
I know that I was wrong...
I knew that I was wrong then too...
I know saw the cliff and my ass walked right off...
But I'm still here...
With bruises, scratches, and broken bones...
The fall didn't kill me...
And what doesn't kill me can only make me stronger...
And even though I'm hurting now...
I enter tomorrow with more strength and smarts than I had before...
Really I can't say this enough...
I'm sorry to all of those I hurt on my way over the edge...
I hope you guys can find comfort in the FACT that I am a changed person...
People say that true change is never an overnight thing...
And it's true...
Changing is a truly difficult thing to do...
But everyday more progress is made in my rehabilitation...
I know that somedays will be harder than others...
But the goal is clear...
I never ever want to fall over the edge again...
