Delusions of Grandeur...ENTER...{ME}

Man... 

Lately I've been on another level of crazy...

Someplace nobody should ever be...

The problem...

Is something I've dealt with before...

Well not really...

Because if I had... 

I wouldn't be in the same bullshit again...

So... 

I can't blame the situation anymore...

When obviously it's me...

Me not being honest with myself...

And accepting it or whatever it is I think is going on...

Or I think I want...

So right now is where I come to terms with what I really want...

And tell the truth...

Real talk and Contrary to Popular Belief

 I do have feelings- And I like those feelings they're exciting and they make life more interesting... 

No one can live without feelings...

I do have a heart- It's just a little weaker than most...

I do care about people-I care a little too much, so it's easier to just pretend I don't... 

I don't want to be nobody's girl right now- I just want to be me and not worry about no one else but me. I mean it sounds nice, but I can't do it right now. Too much on my plate.

I don't want no bullshit- I don't want people to pretend they like me when they don't. I'm not going to do that, so why the hell should you? 

I'm not the asshole I pretend to be- That person I've been lately. I don't really like. It makes me look stronger, but it's just not me. I'm not a fighter. I'm so non-confrontational. (So if i bring anything to your attention, it has to be serious because I don't do that.) Really I'm the nicest person you'll ever meet. Sure I may joke around and play mean, but I don't mean a word of it.

So... I've come to terms with who I am... And what I don't want in my life... I'm just me... And that's all I'm going to be...