And I wonder...?

So as of late...

I've been taking the time to really just think...

I've been looking at different situations and just looking for the lesson...

And what I've pulled from things kind of contradicts...

I mean one minute I'm all like...

Fairytales don't exist...

And then the next minute...

Dreams come true...

Or I'm like...

You make your own destiny...

Sh*t happens for a reason...

Really...

I'm just all kinds of fukxed up...

I mean I look at other peoples lives and I'm geeeeez...

How the hell???

Why does everything have an exception?!?!

Why can't there be any kind of definitive answers?

How can you ever say that you're doing what you're supposed to do?

I mean I really used to believe in some type of destiny...

But now...

I can't say that I do...

I can't comprehend how one event connects to the other...

Why certain things have to happen?

Why is there no definitive lesson?

What am I missing?

What haven't I learned?

I just want something definitive...

No more freelance thoughts.